Worry Wart

If you really know me, you know that I constantly worry about absolutely everything. Now add a baby to the mix and my worrying has drastically increased. For those of you fellow mommies, you know what I'm talking about.

Landon hates tummy time. He will not push him self up on his arms, or do "baby push-ups." He has yet to consistently roll over. He has a big flat spot on the back of his head. Of course, I am having major anxiety about all these things. And of course, I am comparing him to every other 6 month old I come across, which I know, is the worst thing I could do. Every thought you can think of crosses my mind, "What if something is wrong with him," "What if I had something to do with it," What if his head stays that way forever, will other kids make fun of him?" "I will be absolutely crushed and devastated if something is wrong." Of course my rational mind knows that every baby develops at their own rate, but I can't help but worry.

He had his 6 month well baby check today. He is in the 49th percentile for weight, 82nd for height, and 92nd for his head circumference. It's funny because at my 31 week sono, they told me he was going to have a big head, and of course, I was freaked out. At his check up, the Dr. said Landon is perfectly healthy. He is sitting up, grabbing things, vocalizing. He said I probably shouldn't expect Landon to walk early, probably around 13 months, which is hard for me to believe, when I walked at 9 months and Austin at 7! But he said this is normal. He also said his head will round out eventually.

I'm still worried, but I need to learn to turn that worry into being proactive about it instead of dwelling in a "woe is me" state of mind. I just need to put him on his tummy consistently, and work with him on the floor. All I know is, when it comes down to it, my baby boy is perfect in my eyes. He makes me smile, laugh and feel an abundance of emotions I never thought I could feel.

After all, how could you not be head over heels in love with this face?